path less traveled

last night i want to the last Self Against City show for the year. it was at the State Theatre in Modesto. i took pictures again. i got some really interesting ones of the boys, as well as some of a new band i just met, A Mover, A Fighter. they were pretty good and i spoke with the lead singer about doing some more pictures for them maybe.


this is clayton. he is absolutely adorable and extremely nice. i could tell he was really excited about the show.


A Mover, A Fighter's lead guitarist. he played the first song with a bow. it was pretty cool.


This is Jack from Self Against City. i usually have trouble getting good shots of him but look at this. he looks great!


Jon, Blake, and Jack all in a row! what a lucky shot!

this is Jeff. usually he is more mellow and quiet but yesterday he was talking and moving around. he had some great energy which allowed me to get some nice shots. i was so proud of him.


i had to put up this picture of blake and jon. i love it.

of course i have a lot more photos but i thought i'd just put these up for a taste. i put up a photo myspace for just my pictures. www.myspace.com/ala_photo. there are more on there. i get really excited when i take pictures. i get even more excited when people appreciate them. and of course seeing the boys is always a huge plus. i even got to see keith!! i missed them all.

i<3INDY

I WENT TO THE COLTS VS. RAIDERS ON SUNDAY!!! i got to see payton manning in the flesh. watching him play in person is a whole new experience. it is an amazing one at that.






look at that man work! he is such an athlete. anyways, the colts won, naturally. they just do not loose to teams like the raiders. although i must give the raiders props for making it a close game. they gave the colts a run for their money. going into the 4th quarter the raiders were leading but then the colts scored a touchdown. the whole crowd of black and silver started yelling "bullshit" and most of them began to leave. now, how do they expect to ever win if they just quit like that? exactly.

this week is finals week and i've been studying like a mad woman. tonight is the first night i've been home fro dinnertime in about 4 days or so. i've been at stephen's for studying everyday! i even missed guitar yesterday because my math tutoring with brian ran long! i cannot wait until this ordeal is over. i have my literature final tomorow, which should be easy, and a break for G set. then thursday is the big one, AP US history. o boy. wish me luck.

bluebirds are so natural

Tonight was Open Mic. Clowdus, Albert, and i rocked it for sure. clowdus and i played guitar and sang while albert played some maracas. we played Adam Green's bluebird's. it was quite nice and people liked it. afterwards we all went to nicholas' house and had cocoa and just hungout. it was a lot of fun. i deffinitly want to do open mic again. eden and i are going to do a tegan and sara song next time. that is practically my dream! to do tegan and sara that is. here is clowdus' and my "band" picture. haha. we are pretty hilarious. i put pictures from tonight in my photobucket for people to see. check it out.

jingle jangle

TOMOROW IS OPEN MIC NIGHT! clowdus and i are playing an Adam Green song. i'm excited, but a bit nervous. i've never played guitar or sang in front of a large audience. it should be good. we've only been practicing for like a month.


and i get to see this man play on sunday! my cousin brian is taking me to see the colts play the raiders. i am so excited! i will get to see peyton manning do what he does best in the flesh. he will be in the same sports complex as me. it will be so amazing. i'm a little disappointed i can't sport my manning jersey though. the raider's fans would probably kill me, literally. it should be a nice treat before finals week. sooo much studying to do!

feliz cumpleanos

this weekend has been quite interesting. yes, interesting describes it.

friday night was movie night for the indie film club at school. i went to that for awhile but i had to leave at 8 to go to Parker's 17th bday party. it was a lot of fun. i pretty much hungout with erin and theo while we watched superbad. after erin, julia, and sophia left the rest of us hungout. it was cool. made some new friends, among other things.

saturday i went to clowdus' to practice for open mic. it is coming up this friday. that is so soon. i hope we are ready for it. anyways, we went to thriftown. i got brand new keds for 6$. ballin! we saw madylin and decided to pick her up and go to sellout buyout. clowdus bought a shirt and madylin got some sickass light switch covers. after i went home and then my family and i went to have dinner with ralph and alice. they are some family friends who we see like once a year. interesting, i guess.

today i went to the folsom outlets with emily and my mother. we didnt buy anything. honestly, inside of Off 5th i see more things that i can't comprehend why you'd make them than things that have potential buying value. i was supposed to have lunch with julia but she had to run errands with her mother. i went to arden with my mom instead. i got a neat dress to wear for open mic. the stupid bubble hem needs to be taken out though.

tomorow i have school. it is "dead week" which is supposed to mean only review for finals but none of the teachers actually follow that rule. i have about 3 tests, not to mention ms. cassetta's essay due friday. ewwww.

all these rocky mountains

i am officially a licensed driver of the state of CA. i passed!! i'm so happy. even better, i only missed one. i was a little worried i wouldnt but everything was fine. now i can just live life in the fast lane.....i know i'm lame.

FLASH

note that there is a new link in my links to visit or whatever it is called section. it is my pictures! i have edited more from the show and added them. please look and leave me a comment on here!

our purpose is clear

OMG! last night was the Self Against City show at Club Retro and it was absolutely amazing. of course all of SAC Attack was there in full force. we did so well with the turnout. the boys were extremely happy. we all hungout before and after the show. it was great. i also shot some photos. well, some is quite the understatement. i took 359 shots throughout the entire night. i'll post a few on here. i have to photoshop some and watermark them.


Jon is just so photogenic. i get so many amazing pictures of him. the way he moves and his facial expressions just come across so great on camera. and then there is Blake...jk! i love blake. he is quite the entertainer. he dances around and drives the ladies crazy.


jon again, but this time with an acoustic guitar. blake and jeff are also in the picture. i think its a nice shot because it gets all three of them in there.


This here is Justin. i'd say he is my favorite but they all are my favorite! but i do love talking to him. he is just really cool and an amazing drummer. his kit was so nice last night. i feel bad because it is hard for me to get as many good pics of him.


Jon singing again, of course. and there is Jack wailing on the guitar during Tequila Moonlight. they had some girls from the crowd come up and dance behind the white sheets and you could see their silhouettes. it was cool.

deja entandu

i want to put more pictures in my blog. unfortunately, i dont have any at the moment to put on here. i'm going to start taking more pictures so i can put them on here.

today i went shopping with olivia. my mother and i made out like bandits. we bought so much stuff. i'm proud to say i finally finished my christmas shopping. i had a good time with olivia. i missed her. although i dont feel she had as great a time as i did, i think she was still satisfied with the catching up we got to do.

thanksgiving break is pretty much over. i'm sad but glad to get on with everything so i can be on christmas break.

gobble, gobble, gobble...yea?

yesterday was thanksgiving, turkey day, etc, etc. i'd say suprisingly it was a good one but i wasn't really surprised. i was excited for it all week and it was pretty fun. my cousin's keith and emily are here from kansas with their three children. their kids are so cute and well behaved. i'm convinced they are the perfect model family. i had to go to my granparent's house at like 10:30 with my aunt maria to help them cook food but it was ok because then i got to sample all the food! once everyone started arriving the chaos began. there were 9 little munchkin children running around but it was fun. food was good, family was fun. i got to watch football on tv and play with my cousins. to top it all off, i caught the last half of the colts game when i got home and they won which obviously makes me happy. i need more pictures on my blog. but right now i don't really have any valid ones to put on here. i think i am going to go on sort of a photo shoot with my friends today. i've decided that if i want to study advertisement and graphic design, then i need to get better at digital arts. photography is a good start and my dad says i can use his good camera. i'll post photos from the shoot later.

i hope everyone else enjoyed their thanksgiving as much as i did!!

i had to pay the toll

last week: i figured something out. necessity is the gift that keeps on giving. when you need someone, you always will do what they want, what they say, give them gifts, give in to them, anything. they can be abusive to you and you will take it. even if you dont need them in actuality. you just feel you do because you are at some personal mercy by your feelings, you still give and give.
it is just a weird way the world works.

this week: things are somewhat good. i'm quickly becoming finished with my christmas shopping. just one more to buy and one exchange needs to be made. the others i am making.

i get my driver's license in 16 days. i am really excited. brian is getting his like 3 days before me. its no contest. really i'm glad we are kinda going through this thing together so to speak. i feel confident i can pass. i just have to be cautious and not get nervous.

i've got some babysitting lined up for next week. that means an inflow of some cashto replenish my supply after all this christmas shopping.

the weather is getting cold and i love it. i love it. i love it.

freedom tonight

i didn't go to west campus homecoming.
the colts lost to the patriots. i don't want to talk about it.
my history grade has dropped 3%. i don't want to talk about that either.

recently i've been helping out with hair and make-up for the fall play. it is pretty fun, but extremely stressful and time consuming. i'm at school all day and then we have to be there at 5 for everything and the play usually ends around 9 or so. i actually get to watch the play on the last day it is showing which is next sunday. brian is going to come see christy. i'm making some nice new friends who are in the play. i like them. some of the kids are really annoying though. i like being involved in the drama department. being a part of two art departments and being able to bring them together is kind of great.

we've been doing a landscape painting in art class. i don't know if i hate it yet. it is extremely time consuming. i painted about one thing in an hour and a half. mr mcgovern got mad when i was painting instead of doing my sketchbook today. it's whatever. i have to finish it and i will get my sketchbook done later. it is easy.

tomorow is michael lopez' s 18th birthday party. it should be fun i hope. i don't know what to wear yet. hmm. he said metallic/lame/etc. so i think i will go for some lame, wannabe scene type thing with a headband and leggings and the whole deal. i'm making him a macarroni art kit for his brithday. i can't remember why but we talked about this before and that is what he said to make him. pretty unique if i don't say so myself. i get to leave the play early to go to his party.

i went to talk to mr kirrene together. he is so great. he makes me feel so much better about myself and he just listens and is insightful. he is truly the best teacher i've ever had. i only hope that next year i can be in his one senior class. that way i can have a challenge but not have to be in AP. i miss having him as my teacher. i almost cried in his office because he just makes me get emotional and sentimental or something. i'm not sure how to explain it.

superman that hoe

here is a little homecoming update. homecoming season is 2/3 over for me. thank god and the mother mary, baby jesus. hahaa.

CB homecoming, Oct 20, 2007: went to dinner with NickLeathers, J Clow, Josefine, Madylin, K Craw, his date claire, my date luke, stephanie achondo, sarah wong, albert and charlsie. we went to Frank Fat's; this hella expensive chinese restaurant. everything was fine until stephanie, albert, charlsie, and sarah left early because of their picture time or something like that. they left a total of $40 fot he 4 of them. at frank fat's that is not going to be even close to cutting it. so when the bill came for $201 kevin, nick and i had to pay a ton of money. confrontation on this issue was terrible and stephanie, being herself decided to be a completely rude bitch but in the end kevin got his money because his mom was pissed. back to the dance. so we got to the dance and they wouldnt let me in unless i pinned my dress because i was apparently showing too much cleavage. they gave me this bullshit safety pin which did nothing so after i got in i just took it out. pictures took a million years. the picture guy made fun of luke's pants. haha. they were tight and purple. i liked them. the actual dance part was by far the most boring. our DJ was shitty. after the dance we went to Nick's house and his mom got us ice cream and popcorn and we had root beer floats. then luke, madylin, nick, j clow, sarah and i played ouija board in the basement. hella scary. i got home around 2 in the morning. overall it was fun.

CKM homecoming, Oct 27 2007: this one was interesting. so emily invited me so i needed her to get in. she was going to dinner with her friends so i was supposed to meet her there. so i get there at 8, as instructed but i couldnt get ahold of her. it was quite embarassing when brian walks up the street with his little group and sees me sitting outside by myself. but he's nice enough to come sit with me and wait until i find emily. we sat there for about 40 minutes with people coming up to him and talking to him, most of which acted like they assumed i wasnt possibly waiting with him. whatever. so eventually emily finds me and we go in. their DJ was better than Cb's but he still wasnt too great. at CKm hc you feel like you are in a pool of human sweat because all the people are so packed in that the air is thick from the humidity. the other downside to this is boys coming up behind you and dancing with you. you dont even know them but you can't really move away because you are stuck in this sea of moving bodies. like fish caught in a net all trying to swim different ways. but it was fun. i got to see a lot of people and dance and look cute. i didnt have to worry about flowers or dinner or whatever. afterwards eric perez took brian and me home.

to be continued...
this weekend is west campus'. hollerr.

see how they run like pigs from a gun

it is homecoming season folks and it is coming fast and furious. next weekend is my homecoming and i am going with Luke, my friend gigi's bf from west campus. i know it sounds weird but he offered to go with me and i said sure because it totally took care of the stressing to find a date thing. but then today i like called to make sure he understood about the whole dresscode thing, etc and he kind of didnt. so we were at target like freaking out because he wanted to wear a dress and you really can't do taht at CB. finally i got him to pick out a gold tie and this pale purple shirt but i had to compromise and let him wear gigi's purple skinny jeans. it doesnt look that bad actually. but he didnt bring money and so he has to have his parents come back to target with him and buy the clothes which pray to god he does.

next weekend is CKM homecoming. brian is supposed to invite me but now he is pussying out and doesnt have a date so he might not even go. i want to go regardless of if he does. i need him to tell me if he is or isnt going so there will be enough time for emily to invite me instead. he is really last minute about all this stuff. not to mention he doesnt like to let the public know how close we actually are. it is like i have some disease and he is embarassed about befriending me. whatever.

the next week is west campus homecoming. luckily gigi and luke are inviting me and albert. it will be fun and a nice low-stress way to end the homecoming season.

this all better be good.

lilian lies to avoid all the questions

i'm stuck between 2 places. one is old and comfortable. it is something i am used to and love and i know i do with all of my heart. the other is new and different. i am unsure about it and i don't know what to do or think. i love the old and comfortable one and never want to give it up. i don't know if i should move forward with this new one or stop it before it really even begins.


CONFUSED.
"she thinks that everyone is looking at the way her figure's changed"

crank that solja boyy

i've been sick for about 2 days. i went home early yesterday but today i just stuck it out because there was a rally at the end of the day. i'm really glad i stayed because the rally was pretty fun and i always enjoy things like that. although i must say screaming wasnt such a good idea considering my condition.

holy bowl was on saturday. i actually had a really good time. i appreciate my school and my friends at my own school. the entire game i stayed in one place and watched it with all of my friends and took advantage of my own school event and cheered for my own school's football team. all of the other kids seem to not really understand what holy bowl is all about and the public school kids just take advantage of it as a place to make fools of themselves.

i took my first AP unit test yesterday. it was pretty nerve racking but not too bad. i'm going to get through this and i am going to pass AP. i know i can do it.

this coming saturday ryan is having a birthday party. i'm pretty excited because i will get to go to a party with my own friends from school. ryan is such a sweet heart. when everyone else is being an ass he is always sure to try and be nice. i can't believe he didnt tell me about his sweet 16!

for the most part, things are good. despite any down moments i have, things seem to even out and end up all right.

p.s. i didnt get the job at urb, but its ok. i'll just keep trying.

always get hit out of nowhere and end up on your own

miss [mis] –verb (used with object)

1.	to fail to hit or strike: to miss a target.

2.	to fail to encounter, meet, catch, etc.: to miss a train.

3.	to fail to take advantage of: to miss a chance.

4.	to fail to be present at or for: to miss a day of school.

5.	to notice the absence or loss of: When did you first miss your wallet?

6.	to regret the absence or loss of: I miss you all dreadfully.

7.	to escape or avoid: He just missed being caught.

8.	to fail to perceive or understand: to miss the point of a remark.

–verb (used without object)

9.	to fail to hit something.

10.	to fail of effect or success; be unsuccessful.

–noun

11.	a failure to hit something.

12.	a failure of any kind.

13.	an omission.

14.	a misfire.

bold deffinitions are valid to my current situations.
right now i am in an emotional state of unrest. i feel that nothing can go quite right, which makes me in an increasingly bad mood when it is necessary to be in a good one. in my mind, everything is wrong, out of place, not working. in reality, its not.

i miss someone. that can set everything off. my mind wanders. i'm not quite sure the solution to that one because one variable of the equation is out of my control.

i'm missing the target. a failure of any kind, of some kind. i procrastinate on my work, i'm lazy. things aren't going the way i feel they should and it is most likely my own fault. there is something i am doing wrong. hit or miss, and i'm missing the mark every time.

i'm going to miss my chance. i can feel myself letting them slip by, the chances. i'm too unmotivated at the moment to catch them before they leave me. i know i will regret it when i figure this out. i've probably already missed a few.

i'm missing the point. i don't understand. why does it have to be like this? what can i do about it? i wish i could tell everyone everything always so i wouldn't have to deal with them on my own, but that is just not possible. it would only cause more damage, instead of help me to repair anything.

i have got to take care of this all. all of it must be taken care of, or at least gotten rid of.

riding in cars with boys

tonight i had an interesting realization. i'm a sucker for boys who can drive me around. i don't know what it is, but there is something about a boy who has his license and can either pick me up or drop me off or drive me wherever. tonight i rode with 2 different, new boys with cars, and many times i've ridden with numerous others. when i'm with them and we either talk or just get to spend time, i get that feeling. the one you get when you are with someone you like. its wierd. i get it with people i hardly even talk to that much or with people i just never would expect to have those kinds of feelings for. its not like i automatically get a crush on them, but for those few minutes or however long i feel a certain connection with them that makes what i'm guessing to be my hormones go nuts.

i find it weird, and yet interesting.

more than just holding hands

i haven't written anything in an extremely long time. i had a feeling that this was all really pointless, but then i remembered that the point was for me to record what happened for myself. so obviously a lot of stuff has happened between my last post and now. i don't even remember.
pretty much i'm editing my christmas card list, if you understand that. it means that certain friends i'm finding to not be real friends. i don't deal with that.
i also went to emily rose's party last weekend. it was really fun and i met some cool people as well as hungout with cool people i already knew. we swam and dressed cool. i'd like to do it more often.
i got my first history quiz back and i got a 45/50 on it which is pretty impressive. i'm very proud of myself.
yesterday i got my hair done. i was at the salon for 5 hours. we had to do a little of what you would call "color correction" so that means they bleached my hair,minus the nice roots. then they colored the roots. then they colored the rest another color. then they toned it. then they cut it. it pretty much looks amazing. i now have straight across bangs and look super trendy. i love it.
just a minute ago i watched about a million sarah morrison videos. she is kind of wierd. she is like 27 years old and she does all those video blogs about random things. i wonder what she will do when she gets to be like 30. she can't just keep doing what she is doing forever. partying, living in shambles and whatnot. whatever.

i have homework to do and i have soccer pictures this evening at like....5:45. wtf. and then we are having some sort of BBQ. i hope it is fun.

aim, snap, fail

i try too hard. i try so hard. i know this may be redundant, but i think it bears repeating. those aren't the words.

we put my dog to sleep today. my brother yelled at me because i wasn't crying when i got home and he thought i didn't even care that our dog is dead. i began to cry. i really have trouble with death. i mean that sounds like "well duh, its a sad and devastating event". but i mean it really bothers me. i think what bothers me is that it is the single, 100% completely permanent, fool proof thing. once you are dead, you are dead. there is no turning back, there is no refund. this year has been, what i would call for my life, full of death. i've lost 3 significant people in my life within an 8 month period. i can't even fathom the fact that these people and my dog are just gone. gone from the earth, gone from their homes, their jobs, their lives, and mine. it doesn't even bother me so much that no one knows where you go after you die. it really bothers me that they are no longer here with me. i can no longer enjoy their company. call me selfish, but i'd rather them stay here on the living earth with me than go to a so called "better place". it can't really be that much better. it is death. dead, not living, gone, never coming back.

despite my previous feeling of despair and frustration, all has become well once again. although i shouldn't say ALL. that is a lie. but the things that matter most are better and that makes me happy. stress makes me worry and become even crazier than i already am. i feel bad for the people who have to deal with me when i get like that. luckily the people that matter deal with it and realize that i don't mean to be that way. i cannot disclose many details so that is all i will say. just know, things are well.

there isnt anything interesting to say really. the only thing i can think of is this: Recently i have discovered this creature of what i would call beauty. zach efron for all you not-so-with-it people. yes, sadly he is the star of high school musical, which i hate, but he himself is wonderful to look at.

enough about him. today i went to my first soccer practice of the season. it was interesting i guess. there are only 4 returning players from last year, 5 including me. i've been on this team for so many years and we've never had this many new players. it is nice but i also miss my friends. luckily we have another girl who seems like she will be tough and maybe get in some fights. i tend to play tough and occasionally get into fights and the rest of my team thinks i am crazy. this year should be fun. i see some skill, and yet i am one of the somewhat better players so i can't be certain. i really am not that good but compared to most of them i am doing right nice.

school is whatever. people at school are half whatever and half wonderful. i've decided i need to scope out a homecoming date. yea, right. brian and i haven't been able to hangout because i have school so much. i miss him, but we will find time. on the other hand i am going to hangout with emily rose in the very near future. this makes me happy. THE END.

FINALLY, a moment of peace. all i have been doing since last thursday is reading and working and i hate it all. i don't want to say "yes i have a lot of homework" yet because i don't know if this is just the beginning or if it's just going to be like this all the time. i can only hope for the latter. i miss summer vacation and i can't wait for winter vacation. i can't wait for the public school kids to start school so i won't feel like i'm missing out on things so much. this way they will be just as busy as i am and we can plan around school together.

i don't know what else to say. my brain and body are exhausted.

on thursday i started school, so naturally i've been busy. i've come to the realization that Thursday, August 16th, 2007 was the first day of the end of my social life. literally every teacher told us "this class is a lot of work. it is hard, but if you are willing to work hard you will be ok". so basically i am expected to "work hard" for 7 classes. so far i think my favorite teacher is Mr. Van den Bogart for physics. he seems like a really nice guy and he has already shown good teaching skills which makes me happy. of course my favorite class will be art with McGov because it is art and because McGov is my mayne man. my locker is on the bottom this year, which is a real pain but i'm too lazy to go ask to get it changed. i really don't care that much anyways because i know all the people around my locker and have no problem yelling at them to get out of my way. i've already tried to start getting ahead on my reading because pretty much every class has a shit load of reading to do. it is making me miss the days of worksheets and poster projects. i did see Mr. Kirrene yesterday after school. that really made me happy. he said i seemed happy, which he was glad to see and i have to say i really was/am. despite all the coming stresses, i am happy and hope to continue that. it is amazing how certain people can just brighten your day.

"A Friend may well be reckoned the masterpiece of Nature."
- Ralph Waldo Emerson (1803 - 1882)

"It is one of the blessings of old friends that you can afford to be stupid with them."
- Ralph Waldo Emerson

i've decided to write not about my daily activities from yesterday, but about people with whom i couldn't live without. it may seem adolescent to pick these kind of people but i truly have come to the understanding that they are important and necessary in my life.


first and foremost, of course, would be Mr. Brian Mitchell. he is and i like to think will always be my Best Friend as long as it is in my control. we've been best friends since the 7th grade. that means we've grown through the years of middle school and still seem to survive the years of high school together. i've never kept a best friend for this long ever before. i can't be 100% sure why brian is my best friend. i suppose it is because he is so carefree and kind. i learn from him the qualities of a better human being. when he says he won't tell, he doesn't. when you need someone who won't judge, he listens without judgment. even when he isn't aware of it, he is being a good person. as i am one who overthinks and analyzes just about everything, he is the complete opposite and is carefree. he doesn't question often and he doesn't get into things that don't concern him. it brings a balance to my life. he runs his life according to him, but makes time for the people in his life. this is something important i am learning from him, because i've realized that you have to do things for yourself and not worry so much about what other people will think about it. the right people will accept you for who you are. one last, but ever so important, thing i've learned from brian is that not everything in the world is under your control. sometimes you just have to let things run their course, go with the flow so to speak, and accept what is going to happen. this is one of the greatest life lessons he has taught me without even knowing it. as a best friend, i love him unconditionally and appreciate everyday we can spend together and grow as people in the world.


this post has been edited due to realities being revealed to me. i feel great sorrow in doing this but it has to be done in order for me to stop lying to myself.

last night was cray cray. i did not just say that. first i went to michael lopez's house. i havent seen him in forever. he pinned my dress so i can sew it and he showed me some of his dresses he made. they were really neat prints. we walked to the video store and rented 300 and then made milkshakes and he burned me some CDs. i now have plenty of lily allen. yesss! my parents are nazi's so i had to leave around 9:30.

i went home and around 11ish julia picked me up and i slept over at her house. it was so much fun. we are crazy. we watched "television" and ate sunflower seeds and went on myspace. haha. then today we went to take her dogs to get their nails clipped. penny, julia's little dog, was going insane, and winslow, the big one, peed in the store. we ran out immediately. after that julia's sister took us to panda express for some chinese cuisine. hahhaa. we went back to her house and took naps.

my dad picked my up and took me to guitar. we were really early so we ate dinner at la fiesta. havent been there in a long time. it reminds me of the sutter days. on that note, school is starting in 3 days. i'm not sure i'm ready for it but i am trying to be. i don't want it to hit me like a semi on the freeway. it shouldnt be too bad. tomorow brian, kyle, julia and sasha are coming over to watch movies and stuff. i'm excited. that is all.

i have decided to get my hair cut and colored like jenny lewis. this is a picture of her if you don't know what she looks like.



i want it to be straight up brown, and i want bangs all the way across. i'm going for a drastic change because i am bored with the way my hair has been for about a year now.

i went to my friend Kayla's sweet 16 birthday party tonight. i really enjoy all of these 16th birthday parties because it is a coming of age, right of passage sort of thing. it is an important time in a person's life and i feel nostalgic getting to share it with so many people. my 16th birhtday was literally the best day of my life so far. i know alot of people say that about a lot of days, but this is a time when i truly meant it. i only hope that everyone's 16th birthday can be the best day of their lives so far as well. i got to see a lot of kids who i hadnt seen since the beginning of summer. it was a lot of fun just to be around friends and fun and food. i ate a lot of potatoe salad, mmmmm.

tomorow i am going to kayla neto's house to finish our history homework before school. i can hardly believe summer will be over in a matter of 5 days. it seems like it has gone fast but really i've done a lot this summer and it has been fun. i've had some good and bad experiences but in the end this summer was a lot more meaningful and remember able than others.

between yesterday, last night, and today, it has been great.

yesterday after i got home i chilled for awhile and then julia came over. we just did girl stuff; watched movies, talked about stuff, ate snacks, and acted ridiculous. it was pretty hilarious because we get kind of crazy when we are alone together. i'd say if anyone were to witness it they'd check us into a psych ward.

today i went to sasha's house. I LOVE THE HAFTS. one of the large perks to being friends with sasha is her delightful family. her family really makes me realize how valuable good friends and people are to have in your life. they are just so hospitable and caring. it was really great to spend time with sasha since i hadn't seen her since she left for Russia. i can't believe she had to get her appendix taken out and was in the hospital on her own for 5 days in a foreign country. how scary. i got to see her scar today from the surgery. pretty sweet if i don't say so myself. we went to the mall for a few hours. it was pretty pathetic because neither of us had really any money to spend so we went bargain hunting. i ended up with a really nice little dress with metalic stripes and an owl necklace and pin. sasha got these really cute Grecian looking silver sandals. they were really cute. after we went back to her house and hungout in her room looking at scary movies we wanted to watch. her mom made dinner. it was this salad with a sort of limey-cilantro dressing and avocados, topped with grilled chicken. it was absolutely delicious. at dinner we were talking about the twilight zone. that show is really creepy if you know what it is. after dinner sasha and i went back into her room and talked about school and people and whatever else teenage girls talk about. most likley things you wouldn't want to know about. after that i went home.

i'm not exactly sure why i have decided to start this blog. i used to blog all the time and then i realized people probably didn't care about what i did everyday or even what i thought. i guess you could say this is for me. read and enjoy if you like i suppose. my predictions are that it will mostly contain my day-to-day activities with occasional rants about whatever i feel or think. you are being warned now. this is not for you so if you are annoyed or offended then you are welcome to stop reading at any time.

today was a nice day. i have a lot of nice days but that isn't saying i don't have bad ones. i woke up at about 8:30 and moved into the cool that is my parents bedroom so i could comfortably sleep until around 11. this is a huge accomplishment for me. i usually never can sleep past 9 at the latest. after getting up i found out that my mom was on her way home to take my brother to the orthodontist and my dad was home because the tv repair man was here. while my brother and mother went to the orthodontist, i took a shower. after i showered, my dad and i went to meet my mom and brother for lunch. we had chinese. it was delicious. i have been really craving chinese since we went on vacation to our beach house. you can't get anything besides barbecue or seafood anywhere to save your life. after that my dad dropped me off at Brian's house. we watched the PGA championship, of course. we talked a lot about a lot of things which is good because for a little while we seemed a little closed. i had a lot of fun, which is usually the case. my mom picked me up around 4:45 and took me to the eye doctor to pick up my sunglasses. they are Fendi and they are BEAUTIFUL. i love them so much. now i am home. i wonder what is for dinner.