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my APUSH test is in 2 days. honestly, i'm scared. i know that i know it, but there's always the chance that the essay questions will be on the areas that i don't know enough about. i'm afraid i'll choke but i'm trying to be as positive as possible and not freak myself out. i try to focus on all the things that are going for me. these tests are standardized for all high school students, but i am blessed enough to attend a high school which is above average. these tests are ten times easier than mr. meagans. all i need is a 3, and i've never gotten lower than that on mr. meagans. i know how to efficiently do multiple choice and i never get lower than a 5 on my essays. i can do it. i can.

today i had my Ven A Ver New Orleans interview. i feel it went pretty well, but they got a lot of applicants. i don't want to be too hopeful because then i'll be really disappointed if i don't get chosen. i really want to go. the only thing i could sense that they were worried about were my AP classes. i know i can go and still do Ap classes. i'm willing to put in that extra effort.

at school a lot of people just bug me. once again i am sick of all the immaturity, up tightness, and ultra lack of common sense among high school students. not to sound like a snob, but it is hard being mature when you are surrounded by people who can't seem to grow up. i really hope that by senior year people can accept that they are entering adulthood and stupid things don't matter. i hope they can learn some correct behavior and stop being so adolescent. being conniving and manipulative is not cute/cool. it is stupid and in the end it will come bite you in the ass. if you have something to say to someone, say it to their face. don't start shit for the sake of stirring the pot. chances are the pot will get poured on you. accept the fact that you can't be friends with everyone and not everyone wants to be friends with you. we may still be in high school physically, but it is so time to get out of the high school mentality.