playing catch up

let's see, may has started. that is something to be excited about. may is the month. may is my birthday, school gets out, summer is on it's way. may is the month.

on friday i hungout with kevin, mike, colin, and joel. i've been anticipating this for awhile because kevin often tells me about the kinds of fun they have. it deffinitly was fun and i'd love to hangout with them again. but joel deffinitly bugs me. he thinks it is really fun to poke me and i had to be stern with him that i am not ok with that. of course that makes the rest of them get on his ass for being annoying and then he begins self-loathing. that bugs me so much.

i took the SAT for the first time on saturday. it is definitely not exciting, but it is definitely not extremely terrible. yes, i'd rather not have to take it, but it could be so worse. i'm not quite sure how i did. it did suck that mr. cardenas was my proctor, i was in mr. elberson's room, and i forgot my calculator. luckily i ran into mrs. coyner and she let me borrow a mathlete's calculator. i wrote my essay about how i think the SAT in unnecessary. i hope that won't inhibit my score. after the SAT, sarah and i went to the rugby game. rugby is really confusing, but interesting nonetheless. they lost though. i think i'm a jinx. teams always lose when i go watch.

i applied for 2 jobs today. i need one badly.

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i've been pondering why people do the things they do. a lot of the time i can see their ulterior motives, and then a lot of the time i am just in awe at their actions. why do people do certain things? i'm not a fan of not understanding, so you can imagine why i even bother trying to figure this out. there are so many times where i just want to yell in someone's face "WHAT DO YOU THNK YOU ARE DOING?" or "WHY DO YOU DO THAT?". i know we are all different, but there are some universal human standards that i would think people would know to follow. i'm not the best person, but i know where the lines are most of the time. the sadder part is that a lot of people know what they are doing is terrible, and they just don't care. the questions in life are endless.