je' taime

today was an extremely bittersweet and heart-wrenching day. after all the fun and adventures, the french students had to go back to france this morning. we all tried our best to hold back the tears, but it just wasn't going to happen that way. after a day at six flags, a night with audrey and claire, a bbq at claire's, a night with everyone at jameson's, and an all nighter with sarah and melanie, the last bit of the candle was burned as we headed to the airport at 5:30 am to see them off. honestly, being with the french students was one of the most rewarding experiences of my life. the group of all of us, including the americans, became so close so quickly. from the time of july 10th until today, i've probably been on more interesting adventures and learned more about the world than i ever have in the entirety of my life. i can't even put into words how much i will miss them. hopefully after i graduate i will get to visit them in france so that they may show me their world as i have helped show them mine.

the suite life

monday and tuesday i went to lake tahoe with sarah, claire, melanie, and audrey.
i haven't been to lake tahoe in the summer since the summer before 7th grade when i went with jennifer tanaka. we even stayed in the same hotel, harrah's. although this time sarah's dad got the 5 of us a really nice suite, complete with a king size bed, lounging area, 2 tv's, and 2 bathrooms. it was the most legit hotel room i'd ever been in.

seeing as we didn't even arrive until around dinner time, we ate at this really awesome buffet. it had chinese food, fajita bar, and even sushi! how ridiculous! it was pretty funny because the french people totally don't have a lot of buffets or eat that much. that night we walked along the road and looked in all the shops.


we called kevin and colin and decided we were going to meet the next day to play tennis in their little housing community. sarah and i wanted to make headbands with famous tennis player's names on them so we went to a raley's we found and got some headbands and glitter glue.

claire decided to get some cherry chapstick...i thought it was a little sketchy seeing as cherry chapstick contributed to katy perry's lesbian escapade. yea. we went back to the hotel and stayed up doing our crafts and talking. the next morning we had a fabulous breakfast and headed to kevin and colin's. we didnt end up being able to play tennis, but we did go to the beach.

everything about the beach was fun except the fact that my camera got dropped in the lake. yep. i dropped my camera in lake tahoe. this is the last picture it took.


today i took my senior portraits. i am pretty sure they went as well as they could. afterwards we all went to the mall, including sophia, marie, delphine, jameson, erica, and matthiue. tomorow i'm taking them to the school and old sac or something. sooooo busy!!

forever unemployed

number of applications submitted: countless
number of managers spoken to: around 6 or 7
number of group interviews attended: 4
number of rejection postcards from UO: 2
number of jobs i have gotten: none
i hereby declare myself to be unemployed for the rest of the summer, and most likely the school year, until i graduate. the summer is going to be over in less than 3 weeks anyway. i'm sick of the job application project and how fruitless it has been. my parents can just yell at me everytime i ask for money. i'm used to it, so it isnt that big of a deal anymore. no, i'm not going to elaborate on what happened because it is a terrible, ridiculous story. if you think you REALLY need to know, then you can ask and i might just explain.
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as for happier things, yes, i've still been hanging out with the french. although, i really can't remember too many things that went on between the jonas brothers and now.

thursday was my last day of class. it was a little bittersweet. i think i got an A though. we didnt even do anything that day. we just ate al lthe food people brought, which was a lot. this girl, meagan, made a cake which was covered in frosting flowers. it was so professional looking. while we ate we did evaluations. woohoo.

friday i picked up melanie and we went to audrey/claire's house to watch movies and swim until claire and sarah got home. sofia and delphine came over. that night we took the frenchies to the rivercats. i personally hate going to the rivercats' games because everytime i go they loose horribly. fortunately they only lost by 1, and it was a lot of fun. i dont have pictures right now because i forgot my camera that day. i know, WTH. after we all went to my house for the night. brian stopped by to meet them all, even though he really just stood to the side and chatted with me for about 10 minutes until he had to leave.

saturday was probably a more interesting day in my book. i went shopping with sasha, who i haven't seen in about a million years. it was a lot of fun to catch up with her and see her. luckily neither of us bought anything. usually she buys a shitload and i end up with nothing because i'm too cheap to spend the small amount of money i have. in the evening the sarah, melanie, claire, audrey, and i went to ford's for dinner and then met kevin and colin at the crest for the french film festival. we saw "the grocer's son" (which i can't translate into french). overall the movie was good, but there were a few boring parts. it was very beautiful. seeing as my parents weren't home, i naturally wanted to either stay out as late as i could or have someone be over as late as they wanted. i called endless people, luke, brian, julia, and no one could., until i was suprised by a text message asking if brian and a few of his friends could come here and possibly stay the night. i was hesitant as the list was annie davis, andrew kwong, aria, and eric perez; all people who it could be potentially awkward and embarassing to have in my house. but i gave in and they all came over. andrew drove aria home around 3 and brian drove annie home. then andrew, brian, eric and i went to sherry's while brian and andrew ate and acted gay. eric just passed out on the table and i sat and laughed. we went back to my house and andrew went to cory's. brian and eric slept on the couches and i went up to bed at around 4:30. i can't even remember staying up that late ever.

now i'm off to tahoe with sarah, claire, and of course melanie and audrey. i am glad to get out.

A Little Bit Longer

I LOVE THE JONAS BROTHERS!!!
last night i went to the jonas brother's concert at sleeptrain amphitheater with geanna, stephanie, and her younger sister emily. i didn't doubt it, but the jonas brothers are amazing performers. they are so young and talented, and they really know how to entertain a crowd and show you that they love what they are doing. i was beyond amazed by the concert. i screamed like a little girl, danced endlessly, and sang every word to every song [minus the new ones]. they played quite a few new songs, which were really good. i am anticipating this album twice as much than i was before. they also played a cover of the shania twain song "i'm gonna getcha" which was so fun.



look how cute he is!! i always hate saying one of them is my favorite but kevin was just so amazing and he is highly under-rated by all the 14 year olds. he is equally good looking with the rest of them, he's extremely talented, and he is very understanding and poised about being 20 years old and having a ton of screaming 14 and under fans. i don't think people appreciate him enough. having his necklace also makes me feel maybe a little more connected with him than the others possibly. plus, he's quite funny.

they have this bus and trailer that they leave outside of the venues and people sign them. every stop people just write over everyone elses, so since i had no sharpie i just scratched in "AMY <3 JB" with my keys. haha. yes, i keyed the jonas brothers, but i think they will appreciate it. plus, i did it out of love, unlike an american idol i won't name.

it is up to you

i have been learning more and more french each day. i must admit that most of it is just vulgar things that are nowhere near useful, but that's alright. ahha. we are having fun.

so monday was more fun with the french, naturally. i picked up melanie and we met stephanie at vic's for lunch to discuss the jonas brother's concert [which is tomorrow]. that was pretty funny. chris sylva showed up and so he got to meet her as well. melanie and i had fun just one on one. later that evening we went to barcode for delphine's birthday. all i have to say about that is: barcode is a waste of money. it is too crowded and everyone there is just stupid 14 year olds who think they are "hott shit". suprisingly unsupervised dance parties are much better and the people are nicer. but it was kind of fun to get cute and go dance.

today i had class. before class emily came over and helped me pick out an "urban" outfit for an interview at urban outiftters. so after class i went to that. it just made me tired and a little frustrated. there were kind of a lot of people there and they just didn't seem to fit the part. idk. i tried hard and i really need the job. O! and mr. schuman called to tell me that my schedule won't work. i can't TA for mr. bogart. but i am going to tell him that i will be willing to switch religion or take any pe available, as long as i can TA for him. if not...o well. but i'm so angry/sad about that. ANYWAY!!! in the evening we went to jameson's house. his house is in the middle of nowhere [whilton] but it's so big and beautiful, as is his family. they are all so nice. i love his sister and his parents. people swam and we had pizza. we also met a new kid, louie, from paris. his correspondent goes to pleasant grove HS.
when it got dark we roasted marshmallows on their outdoor firepit. it is so cool!
we also rode in this cart thing called a gator. it is so much fun. jameson's sister drove us around and it is just like the indiana jones ride or something. i so want one!



Bonne nuit!

p.s. i almost forgot. the second i got home, my cell phone broke AGAIN. piece of shit. so in the morning i am picking up brian's old phone; the samsung because he can't find the chocolate. i hate my life.

je'mappelle Amy

this weekend i went to San Francisco with sarah and her french exchange student, melanie. sophia, erica, jameson, and claire also came with their families and french students, delfin, matthieu, arnault, and audrey. i'll give you the basic play-by-play, with photos. first sarah, melanie, and i [and megan and sarah's mom of course] stopped at the golden gate bridge. melanie really likes it because it is in the tv show charmed, which is american but she likes it. we took some pictures and looked at the beautiful view.

after that we went to the hotel and met up with erica, matthieu, jameson, arnault, sophia, and delfin. from there we decided to all go to the wharf, minus sophia and delfin. the wharf was so much fun! we too the cable car there, walked around and saw all the shops and stuff. matthieu really wanted to stop at lids to get a fitted cap because he thinks that makes him an american gangster. ahha. the french kids are hilarious. we had a late lunch and just walked around and laughed until it was time to go meet everyone else at a restaurant for dinner.


unfourtunately we weren't ready to eat because of the late lunch, so we just saw all of them and went back to the hotel. but we did get to see claire!! on the way to the hotel we kind of got lost because we couldn't find the cable car to get back. o man, that was an adventure. we got hungry later so we had a late dinner. there were too many of us so we were broken up into 4 groups and sarah and ended up eating with jameson's sister, jessica, and her friend logan. they were pretty hilarious and we had fun. the next morning we had breakfast in the fabulous hilton hotel. [i suppose i forgot to mention we stayed in the hilton.] everyone met up in the lobby and we headed for the exploratoruim. that was interesting. everyone just ran around doing all the experiments. i must say arnault was especially hilarious while showing me a zoomed-in view of his callouses. there was this one exhibit called "how cute is too cute" and claire and meg and i took pictures in the mini furniture.

you can see my new hair in this pic! after the exploratorium, we all split up. sarah, melanie and i went to berkely and shopped and walked around the campus. i got a shirt at american apparel and melanie got a Cal sweatshirt. we headed back towards sac and stopped in davis for dinner. we went in borders where i found my jonas brothers magazine i had been looking for. it was so much fun in the car doing to quizzes.

it is hilarious talking and trying to explain things in english and french, and sometimes a little spanish. in case you didn't know, melanie has informed me that sex is the same in all languages, so it is ok if i think the french boys are cute and it is ok if she thinks the american boys are cute. haha. i love spending time with the frenchies. they are fun and i am learning a lot just from interacting with another culture. my english is getting a little broken from trying to speak simply and learning french words. ahha. more fun for the next 2 weeks!

parles vous francais

i dont know if that is spelled right but o well. on thursday i went with sarah to pick up her french exchange student at the airport. it was a blittle awkward because all the people there had gone to europe with eachother and were like "OMG HIIII" and i was like...hi. ms.gallagher thought i was sarah's sister, meagan. after all the awkwardness it was ok. her name is melanie and she is so nice. there are a lot of other french students here as well. claire is hosting a girl named audrey. she is really nice as well. tonight i hungout with melanie, sarah, claire, audrey, katie, christy, and claire's sister and brother mega and jack. we went to oscars [where we picked up a straggling kevin] and ate it on the front steps of mcclatchy. i found that a bit more hilarious than everyone else. after that we went to yogurtopia and then back to claire's. at claire's we played BS. it was probably the most hilarious thing ever. since they speak french and some english, and melanie speaks some spanish as well, we'd try to explain things to eachother using a little of all three languages. i'm learning a lot of interesting things in french. natuarally i can't pronounce over half of them. its ok.
i'll post pictures of them and me later because tomorow all the hosts and frenchies are going to SF and sarah has invited me!

on another happy note, i got my hair done today. my stylist, caitlin, used me as one of her models so she made sure everything was completely perfect and i didn't have to even pay for it [just 20$ for the color]. part of being a hair model means that the owner has to check out the job so Adam J Frederico himself came to look at my hair. i'm sure none of you know what im talking about. basically the owner is this really good looking, successful, and surprisingly young man. he just has this amazing presence, not to mention some intense blue eyes that stare into your soul. basically, if i were a boy i would've had the hugest boner the entire time he was touching my hair. i'm so happy about my fabulous hair.

i'll update with pictures after SF!!

the secret life of the american teenager

in case you aren't aware, the secret life of the american teenager is a new show on abc family. after watching the first episode i decided that the show is terrible. too many things were happening in one single episode and the dialog felt choppy [and like it was trying to be fast and witty like the gilmore girls]. after watching the second episode, i've changed my mind. it isn't the best show but things are smoothing out a bit. i'm also just so interested in finding out what happens, not to mention ben is the cutest thing ever...o and the main character's name is amy. haha. so i suggest you watch it [girls rather than boys]. it is entertaining.
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as for my life:
tuesday night i went to SF with sarah again. we went to see this musical called The Chorus Line, which was kind of unconventional. i really liked it because it was simple and interesting. it introduced a lot of different characters and told stories indirectly. plus it had a pure gold finish, complete with golden tuxedo outfits and a shiny background piece. i mean, what more could i ask for?

yesterday in art class i found out that we don't have to come to class today. that is great. all i had to do was an extra project which i did. we did these weird things with ink which were really messy but so easy. i need to start my sketchbook and my paper which are both due next week. i really need to work on my sketchbook for mcgov. i only have 9/100 sketches. basically i suck.

hair appt tomorrow! i'm extremely excited.

p.s.

i passed AP US History. i passed the AP exam!

the end of an adventure

WARNING: this entry will probably be a bit lengthy. well, more than a bit.

today my family got back from yet another vacation without me. i shouldn't say it like that because i chose not to go, but still it says something. i stayed home from thursday until today on a budget of 15$. over my time alone i found out that i hate sleeping in an empty place, i can be independent, i need my friends, and by watching the office and reading you can numb your pain and forget your fears. i realize that much of that is paradoxical statements and the last bit seems a little over the top. it is all very much true. let's start with
#1: i hate sleeping in an empty place. i hardly spent anytime alone in my house, even though i had the house to myself. i was either out and about with people, or people came to keep me company. the rest of the time i was sleeping and unaware of the fact that no one was with me. thursday after my parents left i went to christy's and when i came home kevin came by and then brian came and spent the night with me. the next night i got home and went to bed immediately. and last night i freaked out when i got home because i was alone and for some reason it scared me. i did loads of laundry, watched the office, and read eclipse to keep me distracted. i sent out text messages asking for people to come over. brian came to visit me and then i felt that i could go to sleep without fear. i basically worried myself to sleep.
#2: my parents weren't here and therefore i basically had license to do whatever i wanted whenever i wanted. i planned accordingly with my schedule and coordinated with others. even with a lack of funding i was able to survive with the help of my wonderful friends. and that brings me to
#3: without my friends i would've been stranded in my house alone and without money. sarah and claire were very understanding about my situation and extremely generous. brian cared enough to stop by and when i called and sounded scared he knew to ask what was wrong, and even though i couldn't bring myself to tell him, just the fact that he asked was enough to make me feel better. i owe claire for driving me around. i owe sarah for listening to me and including me when she knew i was alone. i owe brian for caring.
#4: that is just a personal preference. basically if you surround yourself with simple, yet positive things then you will be fine.

now a synopsis of my weekend. for 4th of july, sarah and i went to Berkeley/san Francisco. while visiting her sister meagan's new place we discovered that meagan lives very close to my grandma and i got to visit her which i think made her very happy. we just went around and looked at expensive things we wished we could buy. for dinner we were going to go to bubba gumps, but it was WAY crowded and we ended up going to the elephant bar. i love the city and i love sarah wong.


saturday colin got the group together at country club lanes for bowling. claire, sarah, christy, and i shared a lane. sex and the city bowling, complete with flip flops and bright pink bowling balls. after bowling we all headed to colin's house which is very nice and large. despite the "swimming" specification, we still refused to swim only to spite kevin. it is causing tensions. after a tour of the house and chill time in colin's bedroom, claire sarah and i headed home.



after i came home i began my freak out, feeling like i had nothing to do and not being ok with my lack of human interacion. to soothe myself i read chapters of eclipse, alternating with an episode of the office season one. i did a few loads of laundry and stayed up until i could barely keep my eyes open. brian's short visit signaled time to go to bed and so i slept. i woke up around 9:15 and got to my chores immediately. i finished around 11:45 and met stephanie and sarah at vic's. i went home and watched magical mystery tour. i don't understand that movie at all. i figure you have to be on drugs to appreciate it fully. i also just watched garden state which is a very clever and touching movie. it made me feel and think, all i ask in a movie. i sang along to every song because my carpool used to play that soundtrack everyday in 8th grade. o, ain't life grand?

gray cloud

sadly the past few days have proven to be less up beat than the rest of my summer. i'll get the bad over with and then get to the good. if you regularly read my blog, or you know me, then you know i do not have a job, still. so silly me for deciding to diplomatically approach my mother at the beginning of the month to discuss all the finances i will be needing for the month. i tried to tell her about snr portraits, hair, jobros, book buying, etc. this all just lit the sparks for yet another argument about how i continue to be unemployed, i'm not trying hard enough to get a job, and that i have set my job standards too high. of course that is a pure load of bullshit. i have put in numerous applications, spoken with managers, went to an interview even. all the jobs i have applied for are minimum wage, mostly in retail stores and places like starbucks and cafe late. so long story short, i've been financially cut off. my parents went away for the weekend and my mother gave me 15$. she did leave me the gas card after i asked for it, but who knows what will happen. i wrote my mom a letter saying that i am sick of talking about this and how i am sorry i am financially dependent on her and i dont enjoy it. that just pissed off my father who now hates me. he says i don't "participate or contribute", this being said while i calculated my book list for school. basically i'm sick of the bullshit and unnecessary stress/pressure. i am officially afraid to ask them for money and am desperately seeking handouts from friends as well as any words about jobs. i am also scared about college seeing as they hate me so their threats about not paying for my college will most likely be real.

and on a happier note, i've had some fun with sarah and claire recently. on tuesday we went for a picnic at the park wtih our fast food (i could only guy jack-in-the-box because i only had a giftcard). blair came as well. it was really a nice activity, being on the cool green grass with the sun just peeking through the leaves as we discussed topics such as Sex and The City.

wednesday night the three of us went to ben's baseball game and then sleptover at claire's. spanding time with the taylor siblings is a lot of fun, but eventually, like your own siblings they start to bug you. we watched paris je'taime and then went to read twilight and go to bed.


last night we went to christy's for awhile. all the girls except christy and i left and then we went with the boys to mountain mikes. after i went home and kevin randomly stopped by. after he left for mike's, brian also stopped by. his stopping by ended up being an endless television movie fest. he left early this morning i suppose. i left him downstairs at about 1:30.
now i am going to eat a bagel.

i love

i love the way it looks when my nails are painted and i text message.
i love when my hair dries naturally and it isn't out of control.
i love mascara on eyelashes.

today is the first day of july. i think that means my summer is about half way over. yes, leave it to me to pull the half-empty card on you all. i have just 3 weeks of summer school left [really 9 days], a ton of drawing and reading to do, my college planning hw, and i need to squeeze out all the hang-out time i can. this is my last high school summer. surprisingly, one thing i got out of hating high school so much is my love of summer. i technically haven't even gone swimming yet! i need to buckle down and get my shit done!!!

last night i saw sex and the city with claire, christy, and sarah wong. we were originally going to see it in the day, but that didn't work out. it is a long, and possibly hilarious story but i won't elaborate. i met up with the three of them after guitar at downtown. that movie was amazing. those four ladies are so fabulous, stylish, and just amazing. did i say amazing? it made me really want to go shopping. of course i can't because i still have yet to find a job. anyway, we decided that paralleling characters [which is so my thing to do], i am samantha, christy is carrie, claire is miranda, and sarah is charlotte. it really works minus their lack of ethnic diversity. haha.

so i'm off to organize my calendar. i'm supposedly supposed to be heading to brian's but he isn't answering the phone. psh. and for the record, stephen and i are fine again. he was just being a hermit and an asshole because that is what he is. let's all enjoy july!