everything's not lost

i'm not what to say about the last few days. i'm back at one of those places where i have both good, fun times, as well as sadness and feelings of worry. in an overall sense, i've had fun, but there were times that weren't so great. i guess i'll just list of the good things, and then juble a paragraph full of the various not-so-fun feelings.

first off, I FINALLY GOT A JOB! i went for my second interview at freeport bakery and i got the job. i'm extremely relieved because i've been trying forever to get a job. it will be a lot to learn and possibly hard at times but i know i can do it if i just pay attention and try. i don't just want to keep the job. i also want to be good at it.

on friday night and last night sarah and i house-sat for her uncle. he has this really nice house in the gated community down the street from me. last night claire came with us and we had a dinner of chicken nuggets and diet pepsi. i had chicken nuggets for every meal yesterday! that is probably ridiculously unhealthy. we attempted to do some hw, but that didn't really work so we went to the mall to try on dresses. it sounded like a ton of fun but ended up being a fluke. after we headed to claire's and watched olympic diving. david boudia is sooooo cute!



now i've got to write my essay because we are going to disneyland before it is actually due. between school and the stresses of life, i'm getting a little overwhelmed. i suppose i've dealt with much worse but having the super carefree summer that i did just magnifies my troubles. un garcon is still on my mind and heavy on my heart and i have to wait it out which is not something i an very good at. i have to paint and create for art at all times and i have no creative energy right now. somehow i'm going to have to find some. yesterday we told stephanie about our issues in our friendship but that didn't really work out the way we had planned. i also have soccer, which i want to try hard at. i want to get in shape. i went to the gym on my own but with school and soon work i won't really have many opportunities to go. i guess i do feel better when i exercise and i do get reading done there. life is changing, and i can tell. i'm getting older. i don't mind. it is only the transitioning phases that drive me insane.