10.05.2008

this is how i feel

today is my brother's 16th birthday. yea...yay! he didn't even care. my mom bought him a cake and he just said "why'd you buy me a cake? i don't really want cake right now." most of the time i just don't understand him. he makes it difficult for me to be nice to him, but somehow, deep down, i love the shit out of him.

tonight was trifecta night. it was a roller coaster. we went to see Nick and Norah's Infinite Playlist, which was super amazing. it was filled with way too much cuteness for its own good. of course i had to spoil the fun with a huge breakdown in the car about, o yep, kairos. thank god for sarah and claire. they were more than understanding and i guess i'm just a little more than surprised because i've never really had such good friends like that. it all ended on a good note, as most of these roller coasters do.

now i have a shit load of art to make and an essay to write about a dead baby and a slave lady (beloved).

but on the note of Nick and Norah. i both love it and hate it. i love it because that is the way i want to world to work. it is so beautiful and amazing. i hate it because when i think i'm getting close to something like that, i'm really not and it all falls to shit. but i still dream, right?

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