food for thought

i just got back from the gym and because i left my ipod in claire's car i took my dad's ipod shuffle with me. he told me i probably wouldn't want to listen to anything on it but i happened to come across Drive Me Crazy by Britney Spears. haha. way to go dad! i really love when the weather is getting warm and i go to the gym, sweat a ton, and then come home and take a cool shower. it is so refreshing. we probably save sooo much money in the summer because of the amount of cold, rather than hott, showers i take.

so while in the shower (the place i do my best thinking, in case you weren't already aware) i was thinking about my theory about elliot wenzel. mr. elliot is one of my many super-intelligent, high achieving classmates/acquaintances. i might even go so far as to say he is my friend because i think he is just really nice and really smart and funny. anyway, my theory is that he is going to attend some amazing college. (Cal maybe. i don't recall.) at this college there will be tons of smart people and of course the one super-hott/beautiful as well as super-smart girl who will naturally fall in love with Elliot's somewhat nerdy, but alluring charm. they will get married, be rich, own an estate, and have awesome, high-achieving children to carry on their university legacy. good stuff, right?

now i'm sure because i just paid elliot all of those compliments people will think "omg amy totally must have a crush on elliot", but that is where all you assholes are so wrong. (i really don't think you are all assholes, i'm just very profane.) just because someone talks about someone doesn't mean they have a crush on them. also, just because someone has a crush on someone it doesn't mean you have to smirk/smile/make a comment/sigh/etc whenever they make a comment about them or say their name. this is the number one reason i don't like telling people when i have a crush on someone. i'm not really afraid of the person finding out or embarrassment. i'm more worried about how annoyed i will be when i have to receive a load of bullshit anytime i utter the person's name. now that is what i call food for thought.

Music: Drive Me Crazy - Britney Spears (uh, duh. what else?)

fuster cluck

today was a good day. when i say good i mean it in the sense that it wasn't awesome but there was just a certain feeling about it that i like.
feeling about 20 pounds lighter after talking for hours with claire and sarah last night, this morning i woke up to sun and heat radiating from my window. i then proceeded to go into the cool of my parent's room and sleep for another hour. so relaxing and fulfilling. a majority of the day was spent at emily rose's watching Gossip Girl and catching up. now, i must say i am a product of my society because i am completely hooked on GG just as i had been on the OC. i'm not sure what it is that makes watching the pretend lives of fictional rich kids and their drama appealing. it just is and i'm in no position to explain it or argue against it. i love it, lots of people love it, and i'm ok with it.
i came home around 5 to a house full of fresh groceries, happy parents, and home-cooked dinner (all which have become quite the rarity in my house).

the only downfall of the day was that right now i have a ton of reading for Lit and Gov i should be doing, but i don't want to (and it doesn't look like i'm going to) do it. i read the sparknotes for the rest of Pride and Prejudice and i read 3 chapters worth of course notes for Gov. yes, i am half-assing it. but sadly the only thing i want to do right now is read gossip girl. this next couple weeks at school are probably going to kick my ass because i have finals/AP tests to prepare for and art to do but i don't want any of it.

P.S. i love Chuck Bass way too much.

Music: Shut Up and Drive - Rihanna, Too Bad About Your Girl - The Donnas

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ridiculous shit:
1) it takes me hours to read something required, but when i read other things i can fly through 50 pages in 50 minutes.
2) it was like 90 degrees outside today. umm, wtf happened to spring?
3) spring break is over and that means just about a month left til i graduate and turn 18.
4) there are hella little bugs flying around my room and i don't know where they are coming from. pretty disgusting.

making marks

yesterday i went to CCA for the Admitted Students day. we toured the SF campus, Oakland campus, listened to speakers, and did a drawing workshop. i surprisingly held my own in that workshop. it was very insightful.



i always used to wonder while i was touring colleges how you can tell the difference of which campus was the "best fit" for you because no matter what school i was at, for that moment i thought that said school was the best one. later when i'd look back on them i couldn't figure out which one was better or worse. well no more worries, because i felt that "best fit" feel the entire day on both the oakland and san francisco campuses of CCA. i am so excited to go to college at this incredible place. i can already tell i'm going to learn so much and be given the tools to do something that i absolutely love.

Music: Baby I'm Yours - Arctic Monkeys

Beer

i finally finished I Hope They Serve Beer in Hell by Tucker Max yesterday. it was so bittersweet to finally be finished with it. Tucker Max is one of the most immoral, terrible people i've ever come across, and yet he is some how going on my list of heroes. if you don't already know (and i feel most people just should) I Hope They Serve Beer in Hell is a compilation of Tucker Max's most glorious antics and sexcapades. the stories, all true and from Max's point of view, are filled with lots of binge drinking, strip clubs, picking up chicks, poop, vomit, etc. basically every male reads Tucker Max and then aspires to be like him, but probably never will. i'm not sure what that makes me. i blame spending 7-10th grade primarily hanging out with males.

p.s. i hate updating so often but i just had to update about this. it is very important. today i bought My Horizontal Life: A Book Of One-Night Stands by Chelsea Handler. it is supposed to be like the female Tucker Max. we'll see.

circus

saturday night i went to the britney spears concert with sarah, elsie, and nick. HOLY SHIT! i don't care what kind of nasty things people say about her. that woman knows how to put on a show. equally entertaining to the show were all the drunk bitches and hilarious gay guys. on the way out sarah and i bought two knock-off shirts from some hella shady guy. haha. they look pretty good though.



last night we went tping with the belgians. i guess they don't have tping in belgium because they love it and think it is really great. that was probably one of the best easters i've ever had.

Music: Britney Spears, of course.

friend

friend: A person whom one knows, likes, and trusts.
such a simple definition for such a complicated concept. perhaps it is meant to be simple but i can't see that considering the complexities of human emotions and feelings which i find are unavoidable, especially in relationships. i am struggling with the idea of whether or not friendships is supposed to be hard or easy because i feel it is something that is supposed to be enjoyable but hard work would not refer to something joyous. there is always the feeling of accomplishment, which most people like, but i'm not sure right now if the same feelings of accomplishment come from working hard at being friends with someone. it is really hard. what do you do when you need to talk to someone about the people you always turn to to talk to? i have no idea and i'm trying to figure it out. i suppose if someone is such a great friend they will be understanding to your feelings. i really feel it would be dangerous to present my thoughts before collecting them. i dont really know. i should have collected my thoughts before this.

i want to change the style of my blogs. i never have enough pictures and i want more interesting stories to tell. hopefully spring break will bring some of that. hopefully college will bring some of that.

Music: Let It Be - the Beatles

oy vey!

i just went through some crazy ordeals with trying to plan stuff and i have to say i wish everything and everyday could be like "go with the flow". alas it can't and unfortunately not everything can always work out. o well.

so a short update that shall be elaborated on later: i met the belgians last night and they are tre cute and tre hilare. i can't wait to hang out with them more over the break. kairos leaders were chosen today. no comments on that...yea. trying to plan a road trip. i'm not going to school tomorrow so i'm officially on spring break. i got jonas brothers tickets. i'm going to britney spears. i'm going to college.

idk.


Music: Day and Night - Kid Cuddy?

party like it's 1999

this came in the mail last night. i am very excited about it. to my luck, my mom is letting me stay home today because 1)basically all of my classes are empty due to field trips, 2)my mom has to use my car, and 3) it is a professional dress day. that means i am home alone to chill, read my new Nylon and I Hope They Serve Beer in Hell, paint my nails, and listen to music.

also, due to the majority of people telling me i should, i've decided that i am going to sweep my bangs to the side and go with a side parted long, more natural hair style. at least for the summer.

Music: How We Do - 50 Cent