deja entandu

i want to put more pictures in my blog. unfortunately, i dont have any at the moment to put on here. i'm going to start taking more pictures so i can put them on here.

today i went shopping with olivia. my mother and i made out like bandits. we bought so much stuff. i'm proud to say i finally finished my christmas shopping. i had a good time with olivia. i missed her. although i dont feel she had as great a time as i did, i think she was still satisfied with the catching up we got to do.

thanksgiving break is pretty much over. i'm sad but glad to get on with everything so i can be on christmas break.

gobble, gobble, gobble...yea?

yesterday was thanksgiving, turkey day, etc, etc. i'd say suprisingly it was a good one but i wasn't really surprised. i was excited for it all week and it was pretty fun. my cousin's keith and emily are here from kansas with their three children. their kids are so cute and well behaved. i'm convinced they are the perfect model family. i had to go to my granparent's house at like 10:30 with my aunt maria to help them cook food but it was ok because then i got to sample all the food! once everyone started arriving the chaos began. there were 9 little munchkin children running around but it was fun. food was good, family was fun. i got to watch football on tv and play with my cousins. to top it all off, i caught the last half of the colts game when i got home and they won which obviously makes me happy. i need more pictures on my blog. but right now i don't really have any valid ones to put on here. i think i am going to go on sort of a photo shoot with my friends today. i've decided that if i want to study advertisement and graphic design, then i need to get better at digital arts. photography is a good start and my dad says i can use his good camera. i'll post photos from the shoot later.

i hope everyone else enjoyed their thanksgiving as much as i did!!

i had to pay the toll

last week: i figured something out. necessity is the gift that keeps on giving. when you need someone, you always will do what they want, what they say, give them gifts, give in to them, anything. they can be abusive to you and you will take it. even if you dont need them in actuality. you just feel you do because you are at some personal mercy by your feelings, you still give and give.
it is just a weird way the world works.

this week: things are somewhat good. i'm quickly becoming finished with my christmas shopping. just one more to buy and one exchange needs to be made. the others i am making.

i get my driver's license in 16 days. i am really excited. brian is getting his like 3 days before me. its no contest. really i'm glad we are kinda going through this thing together so to speak. i feel confident i can pass. i just have to be cautious and not get nervous.

i've got some babysitting lined up for next week. that means an inflow of some cashto replenish my supply after all this christmas shopping.

the weather is getting cold and i love it. i love it. i love it.

freedom tonight

i didn't go to west campus homecoming.
the colts lost to the patriots. i don't want to talk about it.
my history grade has dropped 3%. i don't want to talk about that either.

recently i've been helping out with hair and make-up for the fall play. it is pretty fun, but extremely stressful and time consuming. i'm at school all day and then we have to be there at 5 for everything and the play usually ends around 9 or so. i actually get to watch the play on the last day it is showing which is next sunday. brian is going to come see christy. i'm making some nice new friends who are in the play. i like them. some of the kids are really annoying though. i like being involved in the drama department. being a part of two art departments and being able to bring them together is kind of great.

we've been doing a landscape painting in art class. i don't know if i hate it yet. it is extremely time consuming. i painted about one thing in an hour and a half. mr mcgovern got mad when i was painting instead of doing my sketchbook today. it's whatever. i have to finish it and i will get my sketchbook done later. it is easy.

tomorow is michael lopez' s 18th birthday party. it should be fun i hope. i don't know what to wear yet. hmm. he said metallic/lame/etc. so i think i will go for some lame, wannabe scene type thing with a headband and leggings and the whole deal. i'm making him a macarroni art kit for his brithday. i can't remember why but we talked about this before and that is what he said to make him. pretty unique if i don't say so myself. i get to leave the play early to go to his party.

i went to talk to mr kirrene together. he is so great. he makes me feel so much better about myself and he just listens and is insightful. he is truly the best teacher i've ever had. i only hope that next year i can be in his one senior class. that way i can have a challenge but not have to be in AP. i miss having him as my teacher. i almost cried in his office because he just makes me get emotional and sentimental or something. i'm not sure how to explain it.