my APUSH test is in 2 days. honestly, i'm scared. i know that i know it, but there's always the chance that the essay questions will be on the areas that i don't know enough about. i'm afraid i'll choke but i'm trying to be as positive as possible and not freak myself out. i try to focus on all the things that are going for me. these tests are standardized for all high school students, but i am blessed enough to attend a high school which is above average. these tests are ten times easier than mr. meagans. all i need is a 3, and i've never gotten lower than that on mr. meagans. i know how to efficiently do multiple choice and i never get lower than a 5 on my essays. i can do it. i can.
today i had my Ven A Ver New Orleans interview. i feel it went pretty well, but they got a lot of applicants. i don't want to be too hopeful because then i'll be really disappointed if i don't get chosen. i really want to go. the only thing i could sense that they were worried about were my AP classes. i know i can go and still do Ap classes. i'm willing to put in that extra effort.
at school a lot of people just bug me. once again i am sick of all the immaturity, up tightness, and ultra lack of common sense among high school students. not to sound like a snob, but it is hard being mature when you are surrounded by people who can't seem to grow up. i really hope that by senior year people can accept that they are entering adulthood and stupid things don't matter. i hope they can learn some correct behavior and stop being so adolescent. being conniving and manipulative is not cute/cool. it is stupid and in the end it will come bite you in the ass. if you have something to say to someone, say it to their face. don't start shit for the sake of stirring the pot. chances are the pot will get poured on you. accept the fact that you can't be friends with everyone and not everyone wants to be friends with you. we may still be in high school physically, but it is so time to get out of the high school mentality.
5.08.2008
5.05.2008
playing catch up
let's see, may has started. that is something to be excited about. may is the month. may is my birthday, school gets out, summer is on it's way. may is the month.
on friday i hungout with kevin, mike, colin, and joel. i've been anticipating this for awhile because kevin often tells me about the kinds of fun they have. it deffinitly was fun and i'd love to hangout with them again. but joel deffinitly bugs me. he thinks it is really fun to poke me and i had to be stern with him that i am not ok with that. of course that makes the rest of them get on his ass for being annoying and then he begins self-loathing. that bugs me so much.
i took the SAT for the first time on saturday. it is definitely not exciting, but it is definitely not extremely terrible. yes, i'd rather not have to take it, but it could be so worse. i'm not quite sure how i did. it did suck that mr. cardenas was my proctor, i was in mr. elberson's room, and i forgot my calculator. luckily i ran into mrs. coyner and she let me borrow a mathlete's calculator. i wrote my essay about how i think the SAT in unnecessary. i hope that won't inhibit my score. after the SAT, sarah and i went to the rugby game. rugby is really confusing, but interesting nonetheless. they lost though. i think i'm a jinx. teams always lose when i go watch.
i applied for 2 jobs today. i need one badly.
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i've been pondering why people do the things they do. a lot of the time i can see their ulterior motives, and then a lot of the time i am just in awe at their actions. why do people do certain things? i'm not a fan of not understanding, so you can imagine why i even bother trying to figure this out. there are so many times where i just want to yell in someone's face "WHAT DO YOU THNK YOU ARE DOING?" or "WHY DO YOU DO THAT?". i know we are all different, but there are some universal human standards that i would think people would know to follow. i'm not the best person, but i know where the lines are most of the time. the sadder part is that a lot of people know what they are doing is terrible, and they just don't care. the questions in life are endless.
on friday i hungout with kevin, mike, colin, and joel. i've been anticipating this for awhile because kevin often tells me about the kinds of fun they have. it deffinitly was fun and i'd love to hangout with them again. but joel deffinitly bugs me. he thinks it is really fun to poke me and i had to be stern with him that i am not ok with that. of course that makes the rest of them get on his ass for being annoying and then he begins self-loathing. that bugs me so much.
i took the SAT for the first time on saturday. it is definitely not exciting, but it is definitely not extremely terrible. yes, i'd rather not have to take it, but it could be so worse. i'm not quite sure how i did. it did suck that mr. cardenas was my proctor, i was in mr. elberson's room, and i forgot my calculator. luckily i ran into mrs. coyner and she let me borrow a mathlete's calculator. i wrote my essay about how i think the SAT in unnecessary. i hope that won't inhibit my score. after the SAT, sarah and i went to the rugby game. rugby is really confusing, but interesting nonetheless. they lost though. i think i'm a jinx. teams always lose when i go watch.
i applied for 2 jobs today. i need one badly.
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i've been pondering why people do the things they do. a lot of the time i can see their ulterior motives, and then a lot of the time i am just in awe at their actions. why do people do certain things? i'm not a fan of not understanding, so you can imagine why i even bother trying to figure this out. there are so many times where i just want to yell in someone's face "WHAT DO YOU THNK YOU ARE DOING?" or "WHY DO YOU DO THAT?". i know we are all different, but there are some universal human standards that i would think people would know to follow. i'm not the best person, but i know where the lines are most of the time. the sadder part is that a lot of people know what they are doing is terrible, and they just don't care. the questions in life are endless.
5.01.2008
the whole truth, nothing but the truth
so help you god.
lately we've been reading the book The Things They Carried by tim O'Brien, which is war stories from the vietnam war. a lot of what we talk about is the truth and whether the things in the book are the actual truth, the partial truth, or completely fictional. i always feel that a lot of the stories are mostly true. other people in the class disagree. in the book, obrien speaks of the truth and how sometimes the truth someone tells differs from the physical truth, but is also often better. i'm not sure how i feel about this whole thing. in the last couple days i've found out some truths. some of them i'm accepting of. some of them i've known but just needed comfirmation, and now that i have it i dont like to believe it. i'm very skeptical of the truth, purely because people can tell their own version of the truth. i guarentee you can never hear the exact same story twice. i think my skepticism comes from my lack of trust in others. i'm a cynic. i'm a skeptic.
lately we've been reading the book The Things They Carried by tim O'Brien, which is war stories from the vietnam war. a lot of what we talk about is the truth and whether the things in the book are the actual truth, the partial truth, or completely fictional. i always feel that a lot of the stories are mostly true. other people in the class disagree. in the book, obrien speaks of the truth and how sometimes the truth someone tells differs from the physical truth, but is also often better. i'm not sure how i feel about this whole thing. in the last couple days i've found out some truths. some of them i'm accepting of. some of them i've known but just needed comfirmation, and now that i have it i dont like to believe it. i'm very skeptical of the truth, purely because people can tell their own version of the truth. i guarentee you can never hear the exact same story twice. i think my skepticism comes from my lack of trust in others. i'm a cynic. i'm a skeptic.
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