feeling the heat

i am fully realizing that we are well into summer now. people, including myself, are trying to make as many fun plans as they can, going out of town for orientations, and realizing the reality that in a matter of just about two months we will be leaving for college. it is such a bittersweet thought and one that makes me squirm in my seat. i want to go to college and achieve my dreams. what i don't want is to leave being here with these people and all the fun we are having. this really is the summer of a lifetime full of late nights, enjoying friends' company, making new friends, reuniting with old ones, celebrating our newfound adulthood and independence, and realizing that we are truly entering the peak of our livelihoods. i want to enjoy it as much as i can (with minimal worries/concerns) and i also never want it to end.

Music: Best I Ever Had - Drake

Dland

before i forget, or it becomes old news, i went to Disneyland with Sarah, Claire, Elsie, Stephanie, Christy, Geanna, Kevin, Joel, Conner, and Colin last week. of course there were little tiffs and some petty drama but we must all be growing up because none of it stopped us from having one of the best trips ever. we had so much fun raking full advantage of our park hoppers, riding every ride multiple times, eating at great restaurants, and just enjoying the great friendship we all have with each other. i know that sounds super sappy, but it is true. DIsneyland was AWESOME!







Music: Daylight - Matt and Kim

commence

last night i attended McClatchy's graduation. i was so lucky that emily was able to give me a spare ticket. i honestly have to say that overall our CB ceremony is much, much nicer but this graduation had a significantly larger emotional affect on my for some reason. when i graduated i smiled all day because i felt like that is what i was supposed to do; be happy. girls around me were jumping up and down giddy, wiping each other's tears crying, and some even just wanting to get it over with. happy, sad, angry, i felt none of them. i felt...nothing. but last night that changed. not only did i see one of my closest friends graduate (which i am very proud of him), i also realized that i am grown up and over petty high school bullshit, i also saw my first friend from my entire life graduate, and i also cried. i can't exactly pin point what it was at this graduation that evoked emotion from me that my graduation was missing. i kind of think i finally felt emotional because it really is over. when i graduated i had something of high school to hold on to. some of my oldest friends were still in high school and that meant that the end wasn't yet here. now that they have all finished, as i have, it really is the end. we are all out of high school. we are all going to different places. we are all grown up. i suppose i can't handle it because now there is no control. there is nothing holding my friends here in sacramento where i will always know i can find them. they are just as free as i am to go where they want, when they want, and leave me and everyone else in the dust if they please. my hope is that they don't leave me in the dust.

Congratulations CKM graduates and all other's of the Class of 2009!

Music: pomp and circumstance

gold hoops

i got my ears pierced yesterday! sarah, claire, and i went to the mall and i got them pierced. i am pretty sure it is the first "adult" thing i have done. i have to keep them in for 6 weeks before i can wear other kinds of earings, but i aspire to look super boho-chic with gold hoops like taylor chang. if she or anyone ever reads this and wants to tell her, tell her that she was my inspiration for feeling the need to pierce my ears! maybe a tattoo next? hahaha. i don't have that kind of money.