angels

i cannot stop listening to robert pattinson's music. it is just very calming and powerful. i'm sure the fact that he is so good-looking helps out. when you really look at him, he isn't that hott in the traditional sense. he has a deeper, more personable thing about him and his eyes just burn into you. you can't stop staring, or at least i can't.

the thanksgiving break has been pretty good so far. wednesday the girls all had brunch and then went to see twilight again. yea, robert pattinson. i just love it and him and everything twilight. i can't help myself. today was actually thanksgiving and i had a good time with my family and we had really good food. there wasn't really anything out of the ordinary to talk about, which i think is good for once. sometimes it is good when just simple, regular things are happening. it doesn't always have to be exciting.

last night i painted, in my own bedroom, and it wasn't bad. i am working on a self portrait right now, which is hard for me. so far i'm happy with how it is turning out. i finger painted the other night and that could also be used as a self portrait. i wish my finger painting could be used in my AP portfolio because it is so expressive. i really enjoyed doing it and i like how it turned out.

Music: Robert Pattinson

october 12

i've calculated that october 12th was the last day i felt truly elated. that saddest thing is that those wonderful feelings, feelings of hope, happiness, and love were all because of someone else. that someone else who doesn't even speak to me anymore. i had about one month of this fantasy feeling and i think it's really hitting me now that is is over. it is over. i can't fix it. i can however survive. i have to take this disappointment and turn it into something good, no matter how hard that is going to be. i have to learn from it, move on from it, and make things better the next time. i feel ridiculous, but i am 17 after all. this is just one step in the staircase of life, so to speak. but no matter what, i'll never forget october 12 and i hope that there are many more oct 12's to come in my life.

Music: Jack's Mannequin

i'm obsessed

i'm sure you knew it was only a matter of time before this appeared on my blog, but here is my official review of twilight, the motion picture. now everyone knows that movies adapted from books are never as good as the actual book, and twilight is no different. the movie itself was pretty terrible. the development of bella (kristen stuart) and edward's (robert pattinson)love was extremely skipped over, the beginning played out a little too much, and the ending went a little too fast. despite these faults, the movie was nowhere near a definite fluke. the casting of a majority of the characters was quite spectacular. all of the cullens were spot on, each embodying the characters i remember from the book and delivering the right attitudes. of course this includes edward cullen, played by the "dazzling" robert pattinson (cedric diggory in Harry Potter), whom i absolutely am in love with. everytime he came on screen and spoke i found myself literally jumping out of my seat and gasping for air. he had the exact effect over me that moves bella swan to fall in love with him. as for bella, played by kristen stuart (the land of women, speak), the choice perhaps could have been better, but i feel stuart gave a nice effort. the only thing that really bothered me about her was her deep voice narrating. all in all, the characters carried the movie, and for me that is enough. if you enjoy the books you can find a way to enjoy the movie. if you haven't read the books, you'll be lost and just think it is a crappy movie.